Perfection- defined

Few people in this world are crazy. Not all. These are the people who do not crave for appreciation. No matter how much praise they receive they feel inadequate, not that enough praise has been showered on them, but, they feel they deserve less. However, clandestine is the feeling, they still are better off than those who do not receive any praise at all.

It is this aspect that can easily make them gullible to those who are social and more fortunate than them. Be it in terms of better pelf and position, better societal disposition etc etc. It is this that attracts this category of these crazy people. Let me give them a name. Say CP (Crazy People). Now, the other category, say FS (Fortunate Socialites) gives CP's a chance to mold them in the fold of the present ‘gen’ mentality. (This category however do this out of choice and no to exploit a CP financially).They show their concern in more ways than one that easily brings CP’s to believe that FS are their true friends.

Even love conundrums perpetuate their feeling of satisfaction giving them hope to survive in all odd circumstances. They feel that they have grown when they have actually fallen in the trap of illusion. The circle appears as complete, if not so, with its radius and diameter giving them a perfect vision of their predicament. A CP finds solace in the company of a FS and believes that the world is beautiful only if FS is happy. This, to the extent of reaching out, doing things, thinking of, liking - whatever had earlier seemed less important, less attractive and less capable in their understanding.

It is surprising that CP’s do enjoy the surveillance born of their understanding of life in the canopy of the FS. FS thrives in such accomplishments. They even go to the extent of exhibiting their capacity to tolerate and forbear and make sacrifices to any length possible notwithstanding how much damage they do to themselves and even their families. It is then that the FS becomes an all time favorite Khiladi – toying with the emotion, thoughts, opinions, secrets of the hapless CP. It is indeed surprising that a CP submits to a mute servility in complete blindness. They call themselves love-bound when in actuality they are love-blind.

FS buys it and makes use of his/her achievement by balancing personal life, their own share of secrets, preferences, ideals etc etc with those of the CP’s.

This goes on and on and the CP fails to find himself/herself in the mire of a make-believe world where resolution is a farce, where laughter is plastic and where pain is an all-time welcome guest. FS in the meantime, is casual and authentic in their understanding of the people and the world and yet continue to play the game of love and friendship secretly sharing a chunk of their personal lives with a grudge and in a way winning the war of life’s vicissitudes with the help of the CS. Their belief-system is rooted in their own belief of life as a whole, their upbringing, their social disposition and their feelings and cravings. You see, a man can smile or shake hands in recognition, congratulate someone for their achievements, appreciate the taste of someone's preference or the food that is offered to them. These are but naturally learnt behaviors and CP’s and FS’s are no strangers to such act of human feelings. This puts the CP and the FS in the broader circle. A time comes when the CP starts feeling the need of the FS and FS triumphs. FS goes to any length to fulfill the need and in the process, satisfies their need to retain the companionship. They however lose sight of one thing. That, they thrive in their incapability to survive alone. They throw parties, donate funds, jump to rescue the needy, show up with provisions for the less demanding and even travel long distances at odd hours to keep up to their social esteem.

FS is not harmful but they lose their value if the CS is careful enough to find out the true face behind the mask. All the time the original CS keep watching, unknown to him/her, the innuendoes of his own reflection with the FS as well as FS secretly nourishing and savouring the game, from outside the circle, oblivious of CP standing behind him/her. Now CP decides to step out of the illusion and guess, who gives the chance? FS; a mistake, a wrong move, a weak moment and FS is out with his/her reality, real self. CP sees the mistake, suffers and then steps out of the circle to rejoin his original self. He sees the whole game once again re-enacted, from the beginning. He realizes his conscious disobeying of his inner voice when he first steps in the circle with the FS. It is then that he appreciates God’s way of ultimately taking him/her out at the right to get a better view of the whole game. The question then is, should CS return to his primitive self or should he emerge as a new being? The struggle and recognition, the pain in the illusion and the understanding of what is what gives him a new outlook which he definitely cherishes. So does his relationship change? No and Yes. No, because he allows FS to bask in the illusion and Yes because he knows that what is what and still chooses to play the game, this time in his own way.